Confused mind Perplexed, blind Confused mind I search to find Standing at the crossroad So thin in the twilight Two ways stretch ahead Endless journeys of toil Abysses falling deep Rotting life, destruction The stench of sin and decay Confused mind searching for thoughts Overwhelming weight of temptation I know the path is narrow But straight on it cuts through anything Anywhere, I’d be anywhere else But my fate is here Confused mind Perplexed, blind Confused mind I search to find Walk the way of life tempted by death One wrong step and you fall into deception Treacherous stones pave the road of perdition I can see a light shining far away Over the trees, over the mountains Calling like a shepherd calls his sheep Agonizing confusion of the soul Leading to poor choice and delusion Confused and blinded I stay on the edge This endless precipice is gaping at me Greed and lust for power drown me In this abyss My questions get no answers Life or death, good or bad, light over dark The choice is mine but blinded I’m at this time Life is light like death is night Dark is this abyss My questions get no answers

My heart heavy my sight blurred My mind wanders in twilight I’m caught here at the edge Sanity is a mere step away Lothar, come! Lothar, harken me! Lothar, come! Lothar, harken me! No sane thought comes now to mind My eyes slowly turning blind Lights and shades all fade away Nothing but confusion Edge of night is now at hand All turns black in this cold land I hear voices calling faintly Voices calling my name Lothar, come! Lothar, harken me! Lothar, come! Lothar, harken me! You can’t know what I feel inside My mind staggers caught by surprise Who calls me out of nowhere Am I going mad ‘cause no one is there Lights and shades all faded away No one here but me, it’s plain as day I hear voices ringing like bells It’s all in my mind, it’s all just my head All sound like me though none really is Thoughts out of control, suffocating my mind Fear and doubt now got hold on me Where is my faith, where is it, God? Blind lies! Blind lies! Lights and shades all faded away No one here but me, it’s plain as day I hear voices ringing like bells It’s all in my mind, it’s all just my head Blind lies! Blind lies! I’ve been here so long now I’ve been here waiting for dawn Night is cold, my mind is weak My body hurts from head to feet Voices in my head, lies in my mind Strongest disease of any kind Burning my soul, blinding my eyes Fighting my faith in their ugly disguise Blind lies! Blind lies! Blind lies! Blind lies!

Confusion crept in my mind Doubt and deceit drove me away My path is lost now, will I ever find The way back to where I strayed Contradictions fighting my thoughts Memories from long ago obtruding my sight I feel the thrill of change, illusion of freedom Release from my servitude Lying to myself, believing my lies Repeating there’s truth in my pointless pride Repressing my instincts, eternal flame within Undeniable existence of a Creator Conception, the birth of evil A foul cell growing in the brain of the feeble Expanding its webs, multiplying its heads The ugly seed is growing darker than blood Lies of the blind, lies to the mind Crippled by guilt but still trying to hide Hide from the truth, hide from the light Hide from this justice I know I can’t fight Evil within, feeds on my sins Thirsts for my blood and lusts for my skin Evil inside, hard to deny Grows ever stronger until I will die Birth of evil Lies to the blind Immaterial Decay of the mind Fall of reason Slave of my fears All confusion Lost is my faith

(First movement) Fall of reason, slave of my fears All’s confusion, lost is my faith Chained in darkness Although once proud, strong and bold My mind restless Turned into weakness by cold My weakening limbs Always failing my brain My cold hands now limp Can not move from the pain First my indulgence Soon followed repay Chain of actions That led to decay Fall of reason, slave of my sins Still confusion reigns over me Bound, feet and hands Bonds I can’t touch, smell or see Chafing my wrists Crippled I always will be Pain through my body And pain through my mind Lethal venom That through sin will bind Chains of sin, heavier than gold Shiny yet colder than stone Silver embedded with pride Lordly though pitch black inside (Second movement) Took me in, showed me Power of sin, changed me Took my reason, gone Took my faith, no more dawn Lifted, raised me high Hid the truth from my eyes Told me how arise Left the day, reached the night Pain is now to stay Hide it, hide me away Forgot life and love Forgot my God above Chains of sin Tie my hands My feet, bound by Chains of sin Tie my hands My feet, bound by Chains of sin Tie my hands My feet, bound by chains (Third movement) Lies and deceit took me far away Drove me through suffering and decay Sight lost, voices rang hollow in the dark Led me deeper in terror and dismay Ghost in nice robes, ghost in disguise Entered my head, told me his lies Tormented my soul, tortured my heart Blinded my eyes, controlled my thought Sharp is his sword, quick is his eye Venom, his tears, and deadly his lie Deceit is his friend, they walk hand in hand Tormenting the souls of the ones that need mend

Light shines on the way ahead of me Far away in the pitch-black sky Like a diamond, bright, sparkling star Calls to follow her in the night Voices behind me call to retreat Temptation to plunge again into the fear Fear of the unknown still lingers inside me Like a dagger stabbing my heart Light shines in the sky, far away Blinding my sore eyes now used to night A last chance for me to walk again The path I forgot long ago “There is no truth, blind are your eyes Leading you deeper into the night Illusions of love, leaning on hope When light will crumble no more you’ll cope” The first rays of dawn shine upon me Glare of red light in my eyes Sweet warmth of the sun shines on me Brings me back some hope of life “Cold is the truth, cruel is the life Hurting you always like a blunted knife Emotions within, blinding your sight Leading through a battle that no one can fight” Day is close by, clouds roll out far Revealing a day in night Clouds of lies and night of fright gone My last chance to walk again “Black is the way, darkness is light Come back to silence, only way of life” Treacherous voices whisper in the night Calling my soul to give up this fight

I never knew pain, never knew fear I never did feel pain of remorse But you, you knew it all, you saw it before And you, you lied to me, lied to yourself You lied to my inner soul Hid pain and remorse Fool, I played your game, your lies Soon I’ll pay the price I know the pain I inflicted I know the suffering I caused I feel the sting of remorse I hear the cries of my soul Each soul that died by my hand Each evil word that I said All these things I can’t forget All this forever in my head The pain inside is so strong Tearing my soul on and on Immortal life of regret Everyone will pay his debt Infected my heart, my soul Comes pain and remorse I hear them calling my name Soon they’ll be everywhere I see how blind I was I let the evil inside Fool, I corrupted my mind Fool, now I pay the price Each soul that died by my hand Each evil word that I said All these things I can’t forget All this forever in my head The pain inside is so strong Tearing my soul on and on Immortal life of regret Everyone will pay his debt I have seen pain and destruction I have seen the end of life I have witnessed thousands in pain Misery, suffering, ruin of man Ever did I laugh, never felt pain Bathing myself in the blood of the slain Pillaging the dead, plundering the weak Leaving the wounded to die in their reek Pain and remorse Pain and remorse Pain and remorse Pain and remorse I was blinded by my own greed Dug my own tomb with my own deeds Believed the lies of the Sinner himself Repeated these lies that I heard to my soul Looked for redemption when it was too late Paying the price for the lives I did take Take me to another dimension Take me to the other side Take me from pain and contention Far away from this burning light Take me to another dimension Take me to the other side Take me to love and redemption Far away from this inner night Take me to another dimension Take me to the other side Take me from pain and contention Far away from this burning light Take me to another dimension Take me to the other side Take me to love and redemption Far away from this inner night Take me to another dimension Take me to the other side Take me from pain and contention Far away from this burning light

I have been in dark places I have seen dead faces I have witnessed suffering But never have I been down here I have fought in bloody battles Spilled the blood of the innocent Rode my horse through rotting corpses But never have I been down here Steps into darkness, steps into night Pushed by my ego I stepped out of light Horrors unseen, fears in my mind I had no strength left to step back to life Thrown, chained, in wet deep dungeons Tied, enslaved, by cruel enemies Tortured and mocked by crowds of men But never have I been down here Frozen, starved, on moonless nights Crawling in the snow praying for food Chewing rotten flesh just to survive But never have I been down here Steps into darkness, steps into night Pushed by my ego I stepped out of light Horrors unseen, fears in my mind I had no strength left to step back to life My sight restored, my mind cleared Now I can see what I couldn’t feel Pictures of twilight flash in my sight A last souvenir of my journey through night Slowly reason gets back to me Enlightens the way that I couldn’t see Screams of terror ring in my ears A last souvenir of my journey through fear Stepped out of darkness, crawled out of sin End of my journey, a new life begins Reward in Heaven, no glory for men What is material has always an end

Light shines on the way ahead Right in front of me I know sun is coming now Rain, forever gone I can’t thank enough my Lord Opening my eyes in time Forever gone The last breath Never alone The last breath A fresh new start The last breath Death of the body Return to nature Freed my inner soul No more material Shadows fade away The light now reigns Whiter than fresh snow Blinds my eyes Silence falls on me Surrounds me whole Quieter than a night In a lifeless land Physical senses Disappear Soon replaced by An intense presence End of the body Return it to ashes Freed from the flesh, the blood Pain forever gone Voices, temptations All now fade away Only the Spirit Now dwells in my soul Memories of times gone by Memories of life Loved ones I used to know All disappear Images of young and old Sadness and joy All things I thought I stood for Now fade away Creator comes and takes me by the hand Leads me gently to another land Light shines on the way ahead Right in front of me I know sun is coming now Rain, forever gone I can’t thank enough my Lord Opening my eyes in time Forever gone The last breath Never alone The last breath A fresh new start The last breath Hope is never dead Where there is life Life is never lost When there is hope Turn your soul around And look ahead Right into His eyes Look for love I can not describe What’s inside me Joy I never knew On this earth Dwelling inside the Great Sprit A whole new world Beyond wild dreams Harmony of all living things around Love, joy and life here everywhere abound Selfishness and deceit forever banned Evil and malice locked out of Heaven Memories of life gone far Gone out of my soul Memories, all, good or bad They all disappeared Faces of friends and foes Anger or fear All those people I stood for Now far away Creator comes and takes me by the hand Leads me gently to another land Light shines on the way ahead Right in front of me I know sun is coming now Rain, forever gone I can’t thank enough my Lord Opening my eyes in time Forever gone The last breath Never alone The last breath A fresh new start The last breath Light shines on the way ahead Right in front of me I know sun is coming now Rain, forever gone I can’t thank enough my Lord Opening my eyes in time Forever gone The last breath Never alone The last breath A fresh new start The last breath The last breath The last breath The last breath

Time has now come for you To leave this world, my friend Don’t be sad for we will meet again One day in Heaven Nothing can break our friendship And you know that death is no exception We’ve been through so much We can’t shed any tears We’ll just say “goodbye” We’ve seen fights and slaughters You taught me to defend me And fight the enemy We’ve seen hunger and sickness You never left me alone Never let me down We did see dusk and dawn In so many places, on so many faces We did travel so far and it is far from home That you will take your final rest Love bound us together It will never break apart Love bound us to life It cannot die, it will remain forever You gave me your power Taught me your skills Gave me your life, your breath Now that I’m good as my master I will fight for his will Protect the work he started You’ve been my brother, my sister My father, my mother My friend, my everything You’ve been my sword and my shield Your teachings will never leave my soul Nor betray your glory Your grave will be humble But our sorrow will never leave Along with the memory we have in our hearts One day I too will leave And then again we’ll meet Not to fight anymore, shining with light Love bound us together It will never break apart Love bound us to life It cannot die, it will remain forever You gave me your power Taught me your skills Gave me your life, your breath Now that I’m good as my master I will fight for his will Protect the work he started